Here in God's Presence

Today is a day when I find that many things go through my mind and would like to record down.

1) Went to Nav HQ to finish up the Prezi presentation. Not saying that it is perfectly done nicely, but still Mr Mxxxx show me much grace. Thank God for that really.

2 Corinthians 12:9

New International Version (NIV)
⁹ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that

Christ’s power may rest on me.

2) Went out with TSS to Clementi to eat KFC (Double Max Down meal tgt with cheese fries) and then to JCube and then to CCK Lot 1. Wa. Really many things. But sometimes her temper also quite funny one. But anyway, God loves her as she is, so i can also love her as she is.

Mark 12:31 ESV

The second is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.”

3) PF’s messages to me also reminds me of a few things. First, I need to be alert about my follow-ups eh. L Forgot to follow up on Dorcas. Sometimes already think that she is Kimberly’s friend, then is already enough already. Well, still if God choose to entrust her to me, I should really be more alert to help her grow spiritually.

John 21:16

Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep."

4) When I was showering, somehow I was so upset about why all men are so sinful, and how God must have been so grieved. Suddenly feel a bit sian. 

Like everyone likes to show off how much they love God outwardly, but i really wonder how is their inner life doing? 

Many people say "oh dear, blah blah blah, i will pray for you..."but how sincere are they.... :( Sian la.

But as the water pour down on my body, it feels like God comforting me. It was a very special experience. And the song “Here in Your Presence” is playing.

Just as what was in that song,

“Found in Your hands, fullness of joy
Every fear suddenly wiped away here in Your presence
All of my gains now fade away
Every crown no longer on display, here in Your presence
Heaven is trembling in awe of Your wonders
The kings and their kingdom are standing amazed

Chorus:
Here in Your presence, we are undone
Here in Your presence, Heaven and Earth become one
Here in Your presence, all things are new
Here in Your presence, everything bows before You

Bridge:
Wonderful, beautiful, glorious, matchless in every way
Wonderful, beautiful, glorious, matchless in every way”

It is probably the moment in the bathroom when heaven and earth become one. Amazed by God’s grace and presence. May God continue to break every one’s heart, so that no crowns can remain on display. MATCHLESS IN EVERY WAY.

Praise the Lord. J

Korea Trip 2013 Testimony

Through the fellowship with different Korean sisters, I have learnt precious lessons such as love for people and love for God, which also leads them to world vision.

One thing that is very clear in their life is this: Love is an outflow in their life. Their sincere and careful concern for people amazes me and also reminds me of God’s love. God must have loved them so much, and they understand how God love them, which in turn cause them to be able to love others the same. In John 4:7, “Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.”

Out of their love, they are very alert to serve and meet the needs of people. Examples of serving such as wiping the different sisters’ spectacles before bible reading are something that I have never seen before.

While living in the Excellent Apartment, we have the training objective in “BASICS”, which was to meditate on God’s Word using different methods such as ACTS method, letter-writing method and Paul’s meditation method. The sisters desire to hear from God daily even as they face different types of situations in their life. They are joyful and refreshed by God daily, and sometimes they freely enjoy singing songs to God. This is like what is said by Paul about holy living in Colossians 3:16, “Let the Word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God.” Their love for God resulted in them to live their life in a way that gives glory to God.

They also have training objective in the area of “LIFE”, to train themselves in the area of living out their life accountable to God and grow in real life issues. That week’s objective in this “LIFE” category was to show love to sisters through playing the game called “Angel and Mortal”, which is also known as “Manito” in Korea. The ways the sisters show love were also very amazing. Sometimes they secretly help you prepare your mattress to sleep at night, sometimes they pray for you and sometimes they paste little gifts on the door or on your table. There are also times at night when they will just talk with one another, to be concerned about one another’s life, even though some sisters are working during the day and could be physically tired. This also shows their love for God’s people.

From the sharing of different missionaries and laborers, I was also amazed by their love for people and for God. Some travels to different countries for mission work with their children. It may be more comfortable and common to raise children in their own country, which is Korea. But they chose to obey the leading of God, that their whole household will follow God, follow what is better for God’s kingdom than what is better for them. I saw one of their children, a young boy, whose parents are missionaries in India, who can speak English, Korean and Indian languages. I really learnt that nothing, not even things regarding their own family, can withhold them from serving God.

During a Man-to-Man time, during lunch with sister Khewon, she shared about one of her good and faithful follower, named Yu Sun. She shared that Yu Sun sister devoted herself to God and is now serving in Africa as a missionary. Yu Sun also shared that all the works she did in Africa for God is all done by her leader Khewon, who in the first place helped her to grow in her spiritual walk with God.

Sister Khewon really loves her and she prays for her whenever she knows some updates from Yu Sun about the ministry in Africa. From here, sister Khewon shared with me the important value of following up on one faithful man, from convert to disciple to laborer, and that through this one man, many others can be blessed, and in this case, the people in Africa can be reached further with the Gospel. She shared that all men will grow old one day, physically can become a bit harder and have certain limitations, but if her life is invested on people, these people can be the ones that God can continue using to preach the message of salvation to many others who are still lost. These will all yield eternal value and give glory to God. This is also how world vision can be developed.

In conclusion, I am really thankful for this Korea trip. It helps me to better understand world vision through people’s life and also how love is an important factor whether in serving God and Hus people or in sharing the Gospel to people. Thank God for showing me clearly that He is a God of love in my life. It is based on this love that He first called me, and that it is by His love that I can grow to know Him deeper and that should be the direction that I should go towards.

My salvation testimony

Hello. My name is Jennifer and I am graduating this year from Ngee Ann Polytechnic. I would like to share my salvation testimony and a lesson I learnt recently. I grow up in a Christian family and my father told me about Jesus since I was very young even though we didn’t go to church every week. However, I did not have proper understanding of the bible and God. Being an only child, I was self-centered and hardly show any concern and respect to my parents, but sometimes I just follow my mother to go to a few different churches from time to time. I did not continue because I felt that it was foreign to me and I did not managed to understand why I have to do such activities. When I was in secondary school, my cousin invited me to his church for an Easter service. The pastor shared about Jesus and the message triggered my heart to believe that Jesus truly died for my sins out of His love for me and I prayed a prayer to accept Jesus into my life. The pastor shared about God’s love for men, even though men are so sinful and ungrateful. God’s love was to the extent of sacrificing Jesus in exchange for my life. This unconditional love attracted me to God and I realized it must be God who led me and took care of me all the time. Since then I considered myself a Christian. However, due to the lack of proper fellowship with God, my heart turned cold and I shifted my attention to my studies and other areas of my own interests instead. My time was mainly invested in my own interests and pursuing good academic results. But these did not satisfy my heart’s emptiness because they are without future goals. It was then when I desired to go back to God. On the other hand, I did not know what I could do, because I have no one to help me to get back to God since I left my previous church. By the grace of God, He sent a friend into my life, who is a Christian and she taught me to memorize the scriptures. She subsequently met up with me and I enjoyed the time with her. She then introduced me to The Navigators in Ngee Ann Poly, and after I joined, I could see how God clearly loves me and overtime I developed the habit of reading God’s Word daily along with the sisters in the fellowship. The consistent fellowship with the sisters also gave me a good environment to grow and build my faith through many encouragements and proper steps and attitudes of studying God’s Word and obeying His commands. All these helped me to grow in learning who God is. Recently through quiet time with God, I was reminded of the importance to let God be the One to continuously cleanse my heart and thoughts. In Acts 9, God was able to change the heart of Saul, who later was called Paul, so that he can be used for advancing God’s kingdom rather than continue persecuting believers. Saul was not someone who was perfect and done anything good for God, “But the Lord said to Ananias, “Go! This man is my chosen instrument to carry my name before the Gentiles and their kings and before the people of Israel.” (Acts 9:15) I was reminded that I can never know how greatly God will be able to use a person’s life for the mighty works in His kingdom. Therefore, I can have the reason to pray with faith for people’s life and my own life to be useful and fruitful for God, whether in terms of bearing evangelical fruits or fruits of the Spirit, rather than to be discouraged by what I see by sight. I am really thankful for God’s abundant grace and mercy in my life. Just like what was said in John 1:16, “From the fullness of His grace we have all received one blessing after another.” Please pray for me that I will be alert to allow God to use me as a channel of blessings to others around me, especially to those who do not know God. Thank you.

I Can Imagine

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?

Will I dance for You Jesus?

Or will everyone be still?

Will I stand in Your presence?

Or onto my knees will I fall?

Will I sing Hallelujah?

Will I be able to speak at all?

I can only imagine...



Look forward so much to this Day. Where all troubles and worldly corruption and cruelty will come to an end. Where the evil one will no longer be among men. Where all sins and wicked men and the Evil ones will perish. 

But this Day is reality. What the Bible says that has been passed down from centuries to centuries, from Abraham's time till this day till forever.

Today's Quiet Time

Habakkuk 3

Habakkuk’s Prayer

¹⁷ Though the fig tree does not bud
   and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
   and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
   and no cattle in the stalls,
¹⁸ yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
   I will be joyful in God my Savior.

 ¹⁹ The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
   he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
   he enables me to go on the heights.

Above is from Habakkuk 3:17-19. It really encourages me :D YAY. I should rejoice in the Lord no matter what happens. My application this week is to not love favorable situations, but to love God instead. Hope this will be my reminder! God's character is sufficient for me! :D

BR thoughts for a rainy day

Today i read Ezekiel 21 to 24. Learnt 3 lessons.

1) Eze 22:26
Her priests do violence to my law and profane my holy things; they do not distinguish between the holy and the common; they teach that there is no difference between the unclean and the clean; and they shut their eyes to the keeping of my Sabbaths, so that I am profaned among them.


So the people did not distinguish strictly what is impure, sinful from what is holy and pleasing in God's eyes. Not reverence to God. I need to therefore remember what is right and holy to do in God's eyes. How i live out my daily life is important.


2) Eze 23
In summary, it basically talks about the 2 sisters who defiled themselves by giving themselves in to prostitution. This is probably paid for their own sinful desires and sinful pleasures to seek lustful men and handsome young men. Terrible in the eyes of the Lord. Made themselves unworthy to live as the calling they have received.


Like for bible study, i also learnt about what is important and significant in my life, that is, to live out a life that is worthy of God's highest calling. What a great privilege to be called to be a royal priesthood for God! :D But the problem often lies on whether I am treasuring them or am I taking them for granted.


3) Eze 24

Ezekiel’s Wife Dies

 ¹⁵ The word of the LORD came to me: ¹⁶ “Son of man, with one blow I am about to take away from you the delight of your eyes. Yet do not lament or weep or shed any tears. ¹⁷ Groan quietly; do not mourn for the dead. Keep your turban fastened and your sandals on your feet; do not cover your mustache and beard or eat the customary food of mourners.” ¹⁸ So I spoke to the people in the morning, and in the evening my wife died. The next morning I did as I had been commanded.
 ¹⁹ Then the people asked me, “Won’t you tell us what these things have to do with us? Why are you acting like this?”
 ²⁰ So I said to them, “The word of the LORD came to me: ²¹ Say to the people of Israel, ‘This is what the Sovereign LORD says: I am about to desecrate my sanctuary—the stronghold in which you take pride, the delight of your eyes, the object of your affection. The sons and daughters you left behind will fall by the sword. ²² And you will do as I have done. You will not cover your mustache and beard or eat the customary food of mourners. ²³ You will keep your turbans on your heads and your sandals on your feet. You will not mourn or weep but will waste away because of^[a] your sins and groan among yourselves. ²⁴ Ezekiel will be a sign to you; you will do just as he has done. When this happens, you will know that I am the Sovereign LORD.’
 ²⁵ “And you, son of man, on the day I take away their stronghold, their joy and glory, the delight of their eyes, their heart’s desire, and their sons and daughters as well— ²⁶ on that day a fugitive will come to tell you the news. ²⁷ At that time your mouth will be opened; you will speak with him and will no longer be silent. So you will be a sign to them, and they will know that I am the LORD.”

How to live out a life that is just a stranger of the world, just passing by the world while on the way to the eternal heaven above. What is great life it is ahead! The world is just a temporary stay, or rather, just a short stop before entering heaven. Need to see what is the ultimate stop, destination that i am heading too. And the fact that i am just lending a stay on this earth. 

Even though i spent some time on this world, it doesn't mean that i would need to love this world. So i need to be alert to love not the world, but God. Need to go even closer to God. :) Amen! :D

Sunday's QT: Ps 142 (NIV)

Psalm 142

    A maskil of David. When he was in the cave. A prayer. 

¹ I cry aloud to the LORD;
   I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy.
² I pour out before him my complaint;
   before him I tell my trouble.
 ³ When my spirit grows faint within me,
   it is you who watch over my way.
In the path where I walk
   people have hidden a snare for me.
⁴ Look and see, there is no one at my right hand;
   no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
   no one cares for my life.
 ⁵ I cry to you, LORD;
   I say, “You are my refuge,
   my portion in the land of the living.”
 ⁶ Listen to my cry,
   for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
   for they are too strong for me.
⁷ Set me free from my prison,
   that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
   because of your goodness to me.

Out of the world, You cared for me. Out of my body my soul cry out to thee, and may my praise be a pleasing fragrance to You, the Most High God.


And i will honor, for the things that You have done, that precious sacrifice, that hold the earth till then.


Forever You will be, the glory of the risen Lord, and I will bow my knee, and worship You alone.


Amen.

Wiser (Proverbs 30: 24-28)

 ²⁴ “Four things on earth are small, 
   yet they are extremely wise: 
²⁵ Ants are creatures of little strength, 
   yet they store up their food in the summer; 
²⁶ hyraxes are creatures of little power, 
   yet they make their home in the crags; 
²⁷ locusts have no king, 
   yet they advance together in ranks; 
²⁸ a lizard can be caught with the hand, 
   yet it is found in kings’ palaces.

Thanksgiving

↑ Long time ago my leader (PF) gave me these sushi ~ super nice.

Fed my whole family. Haha.

↑ All the pictures about shows the background cross that is drawn using the newly bought pink 0.7 pencil at SIM popular. Haha. I like it quite a lot, though it's abit too light and the lead breaks easily.. T_T

↑ This picture here is what i used to memorise the verse Ps 143: 8,10

It's quite a long verse for me.. O.o But i had fun doing it! :D What a blessing! ^^

"Let the morning bring me Word of Your unfailing love, for i have put my trust in You.

Show me the way i should go, for to You i lift up my soul.

Teach me to do Your Will, for You are my God.

May Your good Spirit lead me on level ground."

-- Psalms 143:8,10 (NIV)

Hehe. REally a blessing verse. To wake up in the morning and have God's Word spoken to you~ :D ahaha. <33

I am falling in love with Him, over and over and, over and over again! (Him is Jesus! )

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Jesus : The Lamb of God

Who will ever love more than how much God can love me?

It is by God's grace that i am able to live the eternal life now. God's mercy.

Today i went through a bible study of "Assurance of Forgiveness". I think it is truly a bible study that touched my heart. Last time i confessed to my own leader about me myself being privately hanging out with another person and then privately having a guy friend who has been close to me. How worrying i was at that time, especially the moment i confessed to her. But at least i could talk. At least i could open my mouth. But this time round, definitely God is bringing me to a higher level.. O.o

This time round i am going to confess to my very own leader! For i have said bad about her in front of her leader. T^T Sinful Jennifer here. ;( Never confessed this is her at all. Not willing to say sorry. ;( Confessing to God has been easy. But to the real person herself, not really afterall. But this is a need. God prompted me. Even through the 3 testimonies shared, they all have mentioned abt they themselves and their leader. Be to like-minded with the leader. How do i be even like-minded with my leader if i don't even want to confess my sins towards her?! O.o

Hmm. Definitely another challenge i need to overcome. Helps me to let go of this kind of pride in me. My leader also said that i need to be ready to collapse myself, rather physically, to be weak and vulnerable, so that i can be taught. But i want to also remember to put my faith in God, to keep it strong. Sometimes can be rather upsetting if i confess to someone, but the someone can't forgive me, or say more things about me. But if that's so, i must keep God's promise in heart. Physically, my flesh definitely has to be weak and my mind, so that i can learn to be humble. But if i don't, i am as good as bring disaster upon my own faith. This also surface the need to pray often so that i can learn more about what God wants me to do. Has been years since i go through a Christian life, or rather a bit a bit, here and there.

I see that every time God wants to challenge my faith, but many times i fall.

First is at CHC, backsliding twice, first i think is because of Kenny, BGR, then followed by a cold heart after ending my second BGR. Can be really a disaster to be so immature. Makes me scared of relationships now. Don't even plan to marry at all. I mean don't ever feel like. But anyway i am still young. May God's will in my life be revealed to me.

Then now is with the Navigators. Wow. Not easy. Everytime when the faith is strongest, some challenges pop out to test me. Again, it's a whole bunch coming together.

1. I need to confess to my own leader OPF so that i can feel relieved from this sin.

2. I need to talk to my earthly father to let him know that Jesus is really God. Not that time is just passing, but there is only one God, Jesus, and He is the way, the truth and the light. Wonder why he is been away from God nowadays. ;( Super sad.

3. Encourage my mother's faith in Jesus. She still doing the bible study worksheets, but she don't read God's Word and don't want to read and find out the answers for herself. I need to teach her how to find the bible, but before that, i need to learn about the Chinese bible too.

4. My financial schemes renewal, regarding my family $0 income and my school fees etc. Need to keep contacting social workers and to proof my family status. Haven't even able to reach my father's medical officer yet. Totally clueless how i can contact him to get an MC.

5. Pray for myself. My own thinking and to destroy my pride thoroughly. Takes the pain for me to let go, but i want to let go. So that i can be used by God. Not just saying, but truely. And i need to do many things to change myself into someone better, to be more Christ-like. A LOT A LOT MORE. Spiritual discipline etc.

6. Reach out to friends. So many of my friends i have shared the gospel to, yet i hanged them there. T^T Haix. The souls are precious. But i can't move on if me myself is not ready.

7. My very poor GPA. Don't even know whether this time round will pass all modules or not.

8. Pray that my friends can really understand me, especially the closer ones. Busy for God. Not to boast that i am Christian, so i have a lot of friends, so that i no time for friends who are not fun or non-believers. Not that. Not that i am so mean. It can be really another pain to my heart when i know that friends doesn't really understand me. But guess that is the cost to pay for the walk with God too.

Nothing i can do on my own actually. Nothing. All needs to be done through the grace of God. But now my own spiritual leader and i is stuck. I can't do anything with the heaviest burden in my heart. So need to really confess it first. Then the rest i can then commit to God.

In Jesus' name i will pray.