BR thoughts for a rainy day

Today i read Ezekiel 21 to 24. Learnt 3 lessons.

1) Eze 22:26
Her priests do violence to my law and profane my holy things; they do not distinguish between the holy and the common; they teach that there is no difference between the unclean and the clean; and they shut their eyes to the keeping of my Sabbaths, so that I am profaned among them.


So the people did not distinguish strictly what is impure, sinful from what is holy and pleasing in God's eyes. Not reverence to God. I need to therefore remember what is right and holy to do in God's eyes. How i live out my daily life is important.


2) Eze 23
In summary, it basically talks about the 2 sisters who defiled themselves by giving themselves in to prostitution. This is probably paid for their own sinful desires and sinful pleasures to seek lustful men and handsome young men. Terrible in the eyes of the Lord. Made themselves unworthy to live as the calling they have received.


Like for bible study, i also learnt about what is important and significant in my life, that is, to live out a life that is worthy of God's highest calling. What a great privilege to be called to be a royal priesthood for God! :D But the problem often lies on whether I am treasuring them or am I taking them for granted.


3) Eze 24

Ezekiel’s Wife Dies

 ¹⁵ The word of the LORD came to me: ¹⁶ “Son of man, with one blow I am about to take away from you the delight of your eyes. Yet do not lament or weep or shed any tears. ¹⁷ Groan quietly; do not mourn for the dead. Keep your turban fastened and your sandals on your feet; do not cover your mustache and beard or eat the customary food of mourners.” ¹⁸ So I spoke to the people in the morning, and in the evening my wife died. The next morning I did as I had been commanded.
 ¹⁹ Then the people asked me, “Won’t you tell us what these things have to do with us? Why are you acting like this?”
 ²⁰ So I said to them, “The word of the LORD came to me: ²¹ Say to the people of Israel, ‘This is what the Sovereign LORD says: I am about to desecrate my sanctuary—the stronghold in which you take pride, the delight of your eyes, the object of your affection. The sons and daughters you left behind will fall by the sword. ²² And you will do as I have done. You will not cover your mustache and beard or eat the customary food of mourners. ²³ You will keep your turbans on your heads and your sandals on your feet. You will not mourn or weep but will waste away because of^[a] your sins and groan among yourselves. ²⁴ Ezekiel will be a sign to you; you will do just as he has done. When this happens, you will know that I am the Sovereign LORD.’
 ²⁵ “And you, son of man, on the day I take away their stronghold, their joy and glory, the delight of their eyes, their heart’s desire, and their sons and daughters as well— ²⁶ on that day a fugitive will come to tell you the news. ²⁷ At that time your mouth will be opened; you will speak with him and will no longer be silent. So you will be a sign to them, and they will know that I am the LORD.”

How to live out a life that is just a stranger of the world, just passing by the world while on the way to the eternal heaven above. What is great life it is ahead! The world is just a temporary stay, or rather, just a short stop before entering heaven. Need to see what is the ultimate stop, destination that i am heading too. And the fact that i am just lending a stay on this earth. 

Even though i spent some time on this world, it doesn't mean that i would need to love this world. So i need to be alert to love not the world, but God. Need to go even closer to God. :) Amen! :D

Sunday's QT: Ps 142 (NIV)

Psalm 142

    A maskil of David. When he was in the cave. A prayer. 

¹ I cry aloud to the LORD;
   I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy.
² I pour out before him my complaint;
   before him I tell my trouble.
 ³ When my spirit grows faint within me,
   it is you who watch over my way.
In the path where I walk
   people have hidden a snare for me.
⁴ Look and see, there is no one at my right hand;
   no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
   no one cares for my life.
 ⁵ I cry to you, LORD;
   I say, “You are my refuge,
   my portion in the land of the living.”
 ⁶ Listen to my cry,
   for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
   for they are too strong for me.
⁷ Set me free from my prison,
   that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
   because of your goodness to me.

Out of the world, You cared for me. Out of my body my soul cry out to thee, and may my praise be a pleasing fragrance to You, the Most High God.


And i will honor, for the things that You have done, that precious sacrifice, that hold the earth till then.


Forever You will be, the glory of the risen Lord, and I will bow my knee, and worship You alone.


Amen.

Wiser (Proverbs 30: 24-28)

 ²⁴ “Four things on earth are small, 
   yet they are extremely wise: 
²⁵ Ants are creatures of little strength, 
   yet they store up their food in the summer; 
²⁶ hyraxes are creatures of little power, 
   yet they make their home in the crags; 
²⁷ locusts have no king, 
   yet they advance together in ranks; 
²⁸ a lizard can be caught with the hand, 
   yet it is found in kings’ palaces.

Thanksgiving

↑ Long time ago my leader (PF) gave me these sushi ~ super nice.

Fed my whole family. Haha.

↑ All the pictures about shows the background cross that is drawn using the newly bought pink 0.7 pencil at SIM popular. Haha. I like it quite a lot, though it's abit too light and the lead breaks easily.. T_T

↑ This picture here is what i used to memorise the verse Ps 143: 8,10

It's quite a long verse for me.. O.o But i had fun doing it! :D What a blessing! ^^

"Let the morning bring me Word of Your unfailing love, for i have put my trust in You.

Show me the way i should go, for to You i lift up my soul.

Teach me to do Your Will, for You are my God.

May Your good Spirit lead me on level ground."

-- Psalms 143:8,10 (NIV)

Hehe. REally a blessing verse. To wake up in the morning and have God's Word spoken to you~ :D ahaha. <33

I am falling in love with Him, over and over and, over and over again! (Him is Jesus! )

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Jesus : The Lamb of God

Who will ever love more than how much God can love me?

It is by God's grace that i am able to live the eternal life now. God's mercy.

Today i went through a bible study of "Assurance of Forgiveness". I think it is truly a bible study that touched my heart. Last time i confessed to my own leader about me myself being privately hanging out with another person and then privately having a guy friend who has been close to me. How worrying i was at that time, especially the moment i confessed to her. But at least i could talk. At least i could open my mouth. But this time round, definitely God is bringing me to a higher level.. O.o

This time round i am going to confess to my very own leader! For i have said bad about her in front of her leader. T^T Sinful Jennifer here. ;( Never confessed this is her at all. Not willing to say sorry. ;( Confessing to God has been easy. But to the real person herself, not really afterall. But this is a need. God prompted me. Even through the 3 testimonies shared, they all have mentioned abt they themselves and their leader. Be to like-minded with the leader. How do i be even like-minded with my leader if i don't even want to confess my sins towards her?! O.o

Hmm. Definitely another challenge i need to overcome. Helps me to let go of this kind of pride in me. My leader also said that i need to be ready to collapse myself, rather physically, to be weak and vulnerable, so that i can be taught. But i want to also remember to put my faith in God, to keep it strong. Sometimes can be rather upsetting if i confess to someone, but the someone can't forgive me, or say more things about me. But if that's so, i must keep God's promise in heart. Physically, my flesh definitely has to be weak and my mind, so that i can learn to be humble. But if i don't, i am as good as bring disaster upon my own faith. This also surface the need to pray often so that i can learn more about what God wants me to do. Has been years since i go through a Christian life, or rather a bit a bit, here and there.

I see that every time God wants to challenge my faith, but many times i fall.

First is at CHC, backsliding twice, first i think is because of Kenny, BGR, then followed by a cold heart after ending my second BGR. Can be really a disaster to be so immature. Makes me scared of relationships now. Don't even plan to marry at all. I mean don't ever feel like. But anyway i am still young. May God's will in my life be revealed to me.

Then now is with the Navigators. Wow. Not easy. Everytime when the faith is strongest, some challenges pop out to test me. Again, it's a whole bunch coming together.

1. I need to confess to my own leader OPF so that i can feel relieved from this sin.

2. I need to talk to my earthly father to let him know that Jesus is really God. Not that time is just passing, but there is only one God, Jesus, and He is the way, the truth and the light. Wonder why he is been away from God nowadays. ;( Super sad.

3. Encourage my mother's faith in Jesus. She still doing the bible study worksheets, but she don't read God's Word and don't want to read and find out the answers for herself. I need to teach her how to find the bible, but before that, i need to learn about the Chinese bible too.

4. My financial schemes renewal, regarding my family $0 income and my school fees etc. Need to keep contacting social workers and to proof my family status. Haven't even able to reach my father's medical officer yet. Totally clueless how i can contact him to get an MC.

5. Pray for myself. My own thinking and to destroy my pride thoroughly. Takes the pain for me to let go, but i want to let go. So that i can be used by God. Not just saying, but truely. And i need to do many things to change myself into someone better, to be more Christ-like. A LOT A LOT MORE. Spiritual discipline etc.

6. Reach out to friends. So many of my friends i have shared the gospel to, yet i hanged them there. T^T Haix. The souls are precious. But i can't move on if me myself is not ready.

7. My very poor GPA. Don't even know whether this time round will pass all modules or not.

8. Pray that my friends can really understand me, especially the closer ones. Busy for God. Not to boast that i am Christian, so i have a lot of friends, so that i no time for friends who are not fun or non-believers. Not that. Not that i am so mean. It can be really another pain to my heart when i know that friends doesn't really understand me. But guess that is the cost to pay for the walk with God too.

Nothing i can do on my own actually. Nothing. All needs to be done through the grace of God. But now my own spiritual leader and i is stuck. I can't do anything with the heaviest burden in my heart. So need to really confess it first. Then the rest i can then commit to God.

In Jesus' name i will pray.

A thanksgiving day~ ;)

Today is saturday, 19 March 2011 in Singapore~ O.o Hah.

Went to bible discussion like usual, and played a fun game planned by sister Janice and led by sister Swee Ming. Quite funny, the way we count the soya beans and risk it to trade with others. O.o Woo. And the 2nd game was the one with the coin held in one party's hand. Quite fun. Filled and overjoyed. Hah.

And so now, i just finished my bible reading on Psalms 32 to Psalms 36. Praise be to God, for the psalms really encourages my heart and spoke personally to me. Before i read the bible, i went to sleep for a while, about 1 or 2 hours O.o But after i woke up, my mum is back home from church, and she blessed a dinner of noodles for me~ Mee~ Hah. And later she asked for her bible. She wants to do her bible study tml, so she need to refer to her chinese bible. How thankful i should me. No longer me asking or encouraging her to do, but she initiated to do the study. Praise the Lord!

And i also found another bible, NIV bilingual kind. I am loving it! ❀ hah.


I see that it is easier for me to understand through the translations! ;)


Praise God for providing me it. It has been left at the corner of the table for quite long already. Finally it's purpose is here. God must have planned for it to happen this way. Praise the Lord~!


Anyway i have got an awesome camp this march holiday in M'sia! :D Though it's kind of awkward for me, due to the gap between me and my leader caused by me. Haix. Hopefully one day God may also reveal to me the plan of what He's gonna do. Really didn't expect this to happen to me. But since then, i feel that i think more. O.o Maybe God wants me to think more than to just go according to daily flow of spiritual activities.. ?


Thank God my faith wasn't shaken, just my attendance. I need to be oh-ever-so-alert to this faith that i have in Jesus Christ. It is the only way out of this cruel hand of Satan, who so wickedly controlling the world. Thankfully also, that God gave me a gentle heart to accept Him as Lord. Imagine if i had been a rebellious young girl, how helpless i would've been! So praise the Lord, for my soul has been redeemed.

Claim Job 23:10

To go through testings so as to come forth as GOLD. Definitely not something that is easy. If a test is easy and i know what will come out, example for a final year exam module, actually i will not benefit and will not hold the honor of the results. Testing must have been something really unknown to the people who are tested but known and clearly checked through by the One who set the paper.


Not easy, but manageable. God's testing is upon me. Till this day.


Recently have a conflict, or rather don't know what kind of relationship problem with my very own leader. Wonder why this happened. And wondered why on that spot i would ran away by an excuse of going to the washroom. Why did i did all these things? I also do not understand. Is it a sign that God wants me to learn and respond accordingly or is it a sign for more to consider it as a testing that i have failed? Again and again, i must've failed so many testings of God, yet in the end only God can comfort me and bring me back to Him. 


Right from the start in the previous churches. Different church, different kinds of testing. O.o Wow. How amazing God's plans are. But truly i learn. This time round is that i should not place all my trust and emotions on someone, but instead, i should have focused it on God, so that when i fall, at least i fall on God. One lesson to remind me to learn and be aware of where i put my faith in. Should not be on humans, but God. Learnt. :)


Yet now i am hanging in the air. And also 2 more final year exams to go. Wonder how God will continue to plan the way for me. Totally going to experience Him again once true more. ;) <33


Hopefully one day i can also come forth as Gold in God's eyes. :)

BUT Jesus Died for me

Recently thinking of what Jesus has done for me.. He has done so many things for me. And one thing, just by giving up his life for me on the cross, it is the most painful thing but he did it. He is pure and gentle in heart, he is kind and caring, he is God.

I read a few things that impressed me..

Matt 8:22

~ But Jesus told him, "Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead."

Matt 13:57

~ And they took offense at him. But Jesus said to them, "Only in his hometown and in his own house is a prophet without honor".

Matt 14:27

~ But Jesus immediately said to them : "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid".

Matt 17:7

~ But Jesus came and touched them. "Get up", he said. "Don't be afraid".

Matt 26:62-64

~ Then the high priest stood up and said to Jesus, "Are you not going to answer? What is this testimony that these men are bringing against you?"

But Jesus remained silent. The high priest said to him, "I charge you under oath by the living God: Tell us if you are the Christ, the Son of God".

"Yes, it is as you say", Jesus replied. "But I say to all of you: In the future you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Mighty One and coming on the clouds of heaven."

Matt 27:14

~ But Jesus made no reply, not even to a single charge— to the great amazement of the governor.

Mark 9:27

~ But Jesus took him by the hand and lifted him to his feet, and he stood up.

There are many many more what Jesus did. He shown his gentleness. Many times people do certain things that are bad to him, but Jesus endured all so that our sins can be forgiven. What great love can anyone else give? No one else.

Top 10 Thanksgiving

No. 1 : Thank God i found good fellowship (The Navigators).



No. 2 : Thank God for never giving up on me although i am so stubborn and still being chosen as one whom He loves.


No. 3 : Thank God for the opportunity for me to learn independence in my life, in how i manage my life and my time.

No. 4 : Thank God for a pass in Microeconomics last semester.


No. 5 : Thank God for more time this year to spend with my mother.


No. 6 : Thank God for many opportunities that i can share with the friends around me the gospel, though maybe just a bit for each of them.


No. 7 : Thank God for giving me the clear way to spend time with Him through consistent reading of the Word.


No. 8 : Thank God for bringing me to Ngee Ann Poly.


No. 9 : Thank God for healing of my father when he was hospitalised for a few days.
No. 10 : Thank God for all the while He was with me in the hardest times of my life in 2010, (i.e. my late grandmother's funeral and at hospital, the friends and relationships with people, studies ups and downs, etc.)

GREAT ENCOURAGEMENT PROMISE FOR 2011 :)

Jeremiah 20:11

But the LORD is with me like a mighty warrior;
so my persecutors will stumble and not prevail.

They will fail and be thoroughly disgraced;

their dishonor will never be forgotten.